God Answers

I spend time with God first thing in the morning, and before I settle down to sleep at night. I pray, meditate on his word, and listen for his voice. I love early morning time with him, because I am well-rested and can recognize his voice. Many times my inner voice tries to answer my questions, but I am blessed to hear the difference.

My question or questions can range from my life’s purpose to my to-do list for that particular day. Most recently, I have been struggling with my purpose, wanting to know my divine purpose for being here.

I have enjoyed being a nurse for the past twenty years, but I have not been passionate about it. I enjoy caring for my patients, but something seems to be missing.

I love when my heart leaps and/or my spirit smiles. Being with family or friends can bring this joy about. When I am home alone, this joy appears when I sit with my laptop and write stories. So, you may think, why don’t you write? The simple answer is fear. Fear of what others might think and fear of not having a steady job. On the inside, I feel like this fear has blocked so many blessings for me.

God has been so patient with me through this struggle. He reminds me everyday to be strong and courageous, and to remember that he is with me. I meditate on his words everyday, but still I fall victim.

Two days ago, things changed. I was out for dinner with a good friend of mine, who happens to be a nurse also. She knew I was unhappy as a nurse. “I’ve only known you for a few years, and you have had nine different jobs.” We laughed because she has made this statement to me more than once. But this night, I admitted my truth. I changed jobs often because I was searching for a position that I enjoyed; one that made my spirit smile. My friend told me again to follow my heart and to be brave. “You have a story to tell.” I had heard this from other friends and family, but I wanted to hear it from God.

This past year, I have been able to hear God’s voice more clearly during our private moments, but it seemed like he was quiet when I asked about retiring from nursing and journeying down a different path. Or had he given me the answer, and fear prevented me from taking the big leap?

After dinner, I asked my friend to stop by the grocery store. I needed to run in quickly and buy some ice cream for my nephew. As I entered the store, an inner voice told me to get some detergent. I was running low on detergent, so I decided to make a quick detour. While on the laundry products aisle, God appeared. In my hands, I held a bag of detergent gel tabs and dryer sheets. I didn’t have my eyeglasses on, so I was squinting at the detergent label. In my peripheral, I saw this young, blonde woman (an employee). She spoke to me. I thought she said Jesus, so I gave a confused look. She asked if I needed help. I told her no, and that I didn’t have my eyeglasses.

Suddenly, she began to tell me that she was a new believer, and God had healed her from an addiction and brain tumor. I froze up. The Holy Spirit whispered, “it’s your turn.” Without a second thought, I shared that I was a believer, and told her about my breast cancer diagnosis. Then she asked if she could pray with me. I couldn’t believe this was happening in the grocery store, on the laundry products aisle. As she prayed, I listened carefully to the words, because I didn’t know her. As the words flowed from her mouth, I heard God. He gave me confirmation. He used this young stranger in the grocery store to deliver his answer. The things she prayed for me had to do with my purpose. After the prayer and small talk, we hugged and parted ways. I was so overwhelmed, it took me a moment to figure out where the ice cream aisle was. I made my purchase and left the store. My friend wondered what was wrong with me when I sat in car. She stated that my eyes were wide opened. When I told her what happened, we both cried.

Mind-blowing is how I described this night. There was no way that this young woman could have known my dilemma. Before I walked away from her, she told me that she was nervous and didn’t want to approach me, but a voice told her to talk to me. I smiled and told her it was the voice of the Holy Spirit.

Everyone who reads this may have their opinion about what happened, and I can respect that. But as for me, I know that God answered my question about my life’s purpose.

I have decided to follow after what makes my spirit smile.

Talk to you soon.

Biking For A Cause

I recently completed the Survivingbreastcancer.org Coast-to-Coast Virtual Breast Cancer fundraiser – bike, run, walk.

It was amazing because I was knocking on the door of becoming a couch potato. It was the motivation I needed. I completed 150 miles in 4 weeks!

So, now, the plan is to stay active.

With the change of seasons, I am now walking from the parking lot to the hospital instead of taking the shuttle. It’s a good mile one way.

Every step counts. So, stay active!

Talk to you soon!


I make a daily decision to stay grateful and positively focused on solutions despite the circumstances.

I am a two-time breast cancer thriver because of the grace of God. He has me here for a purpose; to spread love and care for his people.

I listen to my doctors, take my medications, eat healthy, and exercise.

I may have the occasional pity party, but after a few minutes, God reminds me of my strength and purpose.

We all have our trials. But remember to pursue what makes you thrive. Be blessed!

Talk to you soon!

Get Back Up

Today, my son reminded me that it’s time to get back up. This photo represents the Tammi I know and miss.

Life can throw you hard balls and knock you to your knees, but don’t stay down. Dry your tears, wipe the dust off, and fight back.

There is so much more that I want to see and accomplish. I know God has much more work for me to do. I can feel it in my spirit.

So, it is time for me to get back to being the woman God created me to be. It’s time to get back to Tammi.

Talk to you soon.

Beach Life

I feel like me, again. I am thankful that God allowed me an opportunity to live near the beach.

I had to come out early to beat the crowd. I am enjoying every minute after being in isolation.

I am also loving my new hair!!

Take some time to enjoy the beauty of God.

Talk to you soon.


My new lemonade (ginger, turmeric, lemons, and a touch of honey if you like). Ginger and turmeric are known to reduce inflammation, relieve pain, and support immune function.

I am still in the healing process. Praise God! Diet is very important for me as I continue this journey. I have been reading the Plant Paradox cookbook to help me with more healthy choices.
As I continue to learn about different ways to heal the mind, body, and soul, I am praying for consistency because I do not want to return to any bad eating habits.

Talk to you soon.

Surviving Breast Cancer

I am a child of the most high God. By his stripes, I am healed. I am going through the process.

I fight for my aunts who lost their battles. I fight to show my strength. I fight to bring awareness. I fight for my loving son.

Talk to you soon.